Hello Again

WOW, I have not blogged on here for a long long time. So, what's new?

Not much, just same old, except I am not pregnant anymore, my daughter is almost 10 months old!! WOAH, that means I have not blogged for 10 months. And it was such good therapy, surprised I stopped for so long.

The lil miss is doing great, no teeth yet, and trying to talk and walk. She can say MORE, and the M for MILK. We have taught her baby sign so she can sign those things as well. I am wondering though, if this is a bad sign that her first word is MORE? Usually it is baby, or something like that. It just reminds me of this consumable world we live in, everyone wants more of something. AND, what my husband and I are trying to do is to raise a daughter who can NOT be like that, but instead want to please GOD more than others, more than society.

On, the side, I am a photographer now...weddings, maternity, children, families, you name it I am there. I love it, its my passion. To top that off, I have just started a photography club with some friends, and I am hoping it grows! We just met for the first time this past Sunday and made the theme, "City Life", which the location we were out was a city. We had a blast, regardless of the rain.

Anywho...I am going to leave you with a picture from my photography club, one that I took...or wait, maybe I should leave you one of my daughter. Yeah, I will do that, since you all had to look at my pregnant belly, you probably want to see what was on the inside! Welp, here she is! TAAA DAAAA! :)(PS: Yes, she is a diva. Oh, and follow my photography group's blog www.shuttersheilas.blogger.com)

It's gonna be a wild ride!!

So, according to the doc, I am 1cm dilated and I could go into labor now or in 3 weeks....I am playing the waiting game. The anticipation is a killer. I just want to have her already! Its uncomfortable at night and I am getting tired faster....ugh. And plus I just want to hold my precious baby girl in my arms!!!

But soon she will be here!!! YEAAAAHH! The bags are packed, in the car, and we are preregistered at the hospital. All we are waiting for is for her to be ready! C'mon lil Gracie Monroe....

Hopefully she is not stubborn like her daddy...if she is, I have a feeling I will be in labor days...ha!

Hubby Wubby

So, either my hubby read my blog...which I don't know if he does (mental note to ask), or God whispered in his ear last night while he was asleep.

This morning when I woke up to go pee, my step son was up and sitting in his bed. When he saw me walk passed his room, he got out of bed, told me all about his stuffed animals and then went potty too. I then asked if he was hungry and I fixed him a bowl of cereal. Two bowls of cereal later, I changed his clothes and fixed his bed head and he was off to play.

Then, I walked back into the bedroom and my husband reached out from where he was laying on the bed, and pulled me close for a big huge bear hug. I mean he was really squeezing me close. After kissing my forehead and then going back in for another deep hug, he said to me, "Thank you, I appreciate all that you do, for me and Hayden. I really appreciate it all. You are going to make a good mommy. I love you so much"

I wanted to cry right then and there....and my last blog I wrote explains why. I needed that affirmation, that acknowledgment. And the best part about it... his hug lasted the whole entire time he said that to me, and then some! My husband is a passionate and sweet guy, I just think sometimes it's hard for men to understand what women go through and vise-versa. And its hard for men to get that when a woman makes up her mind of what she wants, SHE WANTS IT NOW! :)

Anyway, I just wanted to follow up and say, I hope I never come across that my husband is a bad man, he isn't at all. We get along more than we ever argue, its just that I have so many emotional things I am dealing with at once. Its hard for me, and probably hard for him to understand where I am coming from...he is so laid back all the time and me on the other hand...I am always planning, organizing, and all that stuff. So, in short, my husband is wonderful and we do have a beautiful family. But sometimes that deep dark pit pulls you in so hard that it hurts to climb back up. But when you realize its worth the climb back up, someone is always there waiting for you to hold and love you.

Lesson Learned: There is hope, and blogging is great therapy. Oh, and love is a wonderful thing (Michael Bolton song...hehe).