Thursday, April 30, 2009

Hubby Wubby

So, either my hubby read my blog...which I don't know if he does (mental note to ask), or God whispered in his ear last night while he was asleep.

This morning when I woke up to go pee, my step son was up and sitting in his bed. When he saw me walk passed his room, he got out of bed, told me all about his stuffed animals and then went potty too. I then asked if he was hungry and I fixed him a bowl of cereal. Two bowls of cereal later, I changed his clothes and fixed his bed head and he was off to play.

Then, I walked back into the bedroom and my husband reached out from where he was laying on the bed, and pulled me close for a big huge bear hug. I mean he was really squeezing me close. After kissing my forehead and then going back in for another deep hug, he said to me, "Thank you, I appreciate all that you do, for me and Hayden. I really appreciate it all. You are going to make a good mommy. I love you so much"

I wanted to cry right then and there....and my last blog I wrote explains why. I needed that affirmation, that acknowledgment. And the best part about it... his hug lasted the whole entire time he said that to me, and then some! My husband is a passionate and sweet guy, I just think sometimes it's hard for men to understand what women go through and vise-versa. And its hard for men to get that when a woman makes up her mind of what she wants, SHE WANTS IT NOW! :)

Anyway, I just wanted to follow up and say, I hope I never come across that my husband is a bad man, he isn't at all. We get along more than we ever argue, its just that I have so many emotional things I am dealing with at once. Its hard for me, and probably hard for him to understand where I am coming from...he is so laid back all the time and me on the other hand...I am always planning, organizing, and all that stuff. So, in short, my husband is wonderful and we do have a beautiful family. But sometimes that deep dark pit pulls you in so hard that it hurts to climb back up. But when you realize its worth the climb back up, someone is always there waiting for you to hold and love you.

Lesson Learned: There is hope, and blogging is great therapy. Oh, and love is a wonderful thing (Michael Bolton song...hehe).